Motivation

So I've created a new reward system for myself.

*10 points max per day

-1 point for every (non-sweet) item of food

-2 for every sweet item

+1 for every glass of water 

8 points = 1 credit

**7 credits = reward

*positive points will be reset at the end of the day (i.e. if score is -1, it will be -1 at the beginning of the next day. but if score is +9, it will start over at 0 the next day.)

**extra/left over credits can only be used during the last month of the year. after the new year starts ALL points and credits will be reset.

Hunger Pains

My friend is trying to get attention by telling people she had anorexia (which she never did, if anything she gained weight) and she's always complaining about hunger pains and how much they hurt. Yeah, they do hurt, I mean, they are called hunger PAINS, but stop complaining about it. If it hurts that much, then either eat something or shut up. I take pride in my hunger pains. When my stomach hurts I know it's because I haven't eaten in a while and I get a sense of accomplishment. I enjoy my growly tummy because I know that it means that I'm sticking to my no food diet.

(Half) Success!!!

I PUKED!!!!! I'm so excited, I finally made myself throw up!!! I binged on ice cream and soda (both easy to purge, I hear) and then I did it!! I don't think I got everything up so I'm still really disappointed in myself but at least it's progress! I'm at my grandma's house, working out in my room while everyone else is sleeping. Hopefully with this new workout plan, I'll start shedding the pounds. I don't really care how long it takes, as long as I reach my first goal of 199 lbs before the end of this school year. I think I'm definety going to make it. I'm feeling really excited and encouraged right now. I think it's time for some more thinspo!!!!!!

NOTE: I DON'T OWN THESE PICTURES!